Hello, it's been really really long but i recently came here to check on birthdays oops HAHAHA (i'm sorry, i am bad with dates). But anyway, revisiting this site in such a long time has brought back waves of memories and emotions. Of course, amongst the many emotions and turmoil, there are feelings of longing for what we used to be, reliving of precious memories and experiences we've made together. And really! life is an interesting concept. Many times, I don't understand why we are fighting so hard for, when at the end of the day, we all leave this place with nothing. But everytime i revisit past experiences, both good and bad, funny and embarrassing, happy and sad, etc., a sense of understanding dawns on me? Like, I still don't totally understand the purpose of life and our existence, but at the same time i think i do? if you get what I mean. But yes, i think that's just my perspective on life in general.
I should totally be doing my tutorials for tmr but i think it's been too long and definitely time to pen down some thoughts HAHAHA it is such a nostalgic feeling watching everyone growing and changing and maturing in one way or other. and then then there are those who essentially remain unchanged (i think i'm probably one of them). it's so fascinating to see how our paths merge and divert, and that momentary merge has left such an impact on us, some more than the others. Sorry if i'm blabbering and my points don't connect very well ahahaha
Emtions are really very unique and special and everyone evokes different kinds of emotions in a person? Like they do the exact same thing, and yet people around them feel very different emotions?? how does that work?? very interesting concept. sometimes, we get really invested in certain people (in different ways) and while someone told me to enjoy the process and all, i think it can be a very nerve wrecking rollercoaster. is that why people often associate emotions with roller coasters???
anyways, as time passes, we see things that are familiar yet foreign at the same time, and i feel like we have lost something we don't know we've lost. but i suppose that's the cycle of life?? sometimes, its even the connection with people that we've lost. and it's honestly a really sad thing. life doesn't stop and wait and it's something that is rather sad i feel. sometimes, we really just need a pause from everything and embrace the inner turmoil, all the emotions. like just for a moment, a pause would have been amazing. but life doesn't work like that and especially in our fast paced society, everything goes by so fast, there really just isn't time to mourn. imagine we're a movie someone is watching and they could press the pause button, as though they're trying to give us the very much needed pause we want, but can't have. but yes, i feel sometimes it's not easy to press the pause button, but sometimes it's something all of us really truly need.
okay, anyways, i think that should be all for now, or rather i need to stop hahahah and go back to my tutorials. at the moment, i think i'm looking at a sleepless night ahead AHAHA oh wells~
thank you for taking the time to read this rather out of the blue reflection.
ATB everyone with whatever you are facing!!
Comments
Post a Comment